what just happened?

i've had perhaps the most important lesson of the semester. someone was a little dishonest and sneaky, someone who i thought was helping me. i'm probably making too big a deal of it because i'm feeling caught off guard and foolish. but it's worrisome because i don't know that i function very well if i can't trust that the people around me are who they seem to be.

suddenly i'm not sure academia is for me.
i don't like that rug-pulled-out feeling.

i don't know how to deal with this but i have to figure it out quick.